Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in socia02's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 20th, 2002
4:01 am	I'm a Vampire, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality! CONGRATS! You're a Vampire! Hisssss! You're the oddball who sits quietly at parties. You rarely speak, but when you do, its usually so crazy that you probably shouldnt have said it at all. You dumb vampire. (Comment on this)
3:11 am	grrrrr ok, so i slept in until 3:00 today, but then i had to go to work at 5, so i was feeling good because i had 12 hours of sleep, which was such a good feeling. Anyway, once i got to work, i was just so frustrated, it seemed that nothing went right. The fucking stupid-ass customers kept getting in the way. i swear there was this couple that spent an hour in the frozen food aisle, and then left, and came back for another half hour. I swar they must've opened every single door. They weren't doing it in any order either, it was completely random. i think they maybe picked out 5 or 6 items that they wanted. after a while, i just couldn't take it anymore and i had to go for a walk. It even seemed like the boxes were against me today. None of the mfgd(mother fucking god damned)boxes would stand up on the shelves. plus, my gloves were wet after doing the ice cream, so my hands kept cold for a while. i finally had the brilliant idea to go get new gloves off the shelf. that turned out to be the highlight of my night. In a related matter, you all know i'm moving to albany in 2 weeks for at least a couple months. i was hoping to line up a job transferring to price chopper in guilderland, but my boss told me that he called those places and the idea "fell on deaf ears". on a good note he said he didn't talk to the "right people" about the matter, and he'll try back later. Oh well. i'll probably have to get another job. I'm applying for a pharmacy tech job in latham (about 20 minutes from albany) at price chopper, so that would be nice. it's full time and flexible hours, but they say you need a year of pharmacy experience. i believe that my college education would be a good substitution for that, don't you think? so i'll fax them my resume tomorrow along with a cover letter explaining my situation. it'd be a good job i believe. i just hope something somewhere clicks and i can finally not be unsure about my future. I'm a libra goddamnit, i'm the scales, i need balance and certainty. this really is ripping me apart inside. oh well, right? Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: eminem: Lose Yourself (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 16th, 2002
2:01 am	poker, beer, and other happenings POKER: hello! i just realized that i've lost $13 playing poker the last 2 times i've played (i play probably twice a week). this is profoundly disturbing, because i don't like losing money. BEER: well, my new favorite beer is Otter Creek Octoberfest. i think it's made locally, or at least here in VT (otter creek is the name of a river here in Rutland, and it runs north, i believe, for a good distance. but it's good, it's not too dark, yet flavorful. YUM! OTHER HAPPENINGS: I wish my life was productive, but i've been stressing out over a whole lot of nothing, such as getting a chemistry job or going back to school, will i ever play magic again, will i be able to afford living in Albany once holly goes back to school in january, etc. For God's sake i'm only 22 years old, i don't need to be this stressed about such things. If there's one thing i've learned, it's that if things aren't going your way, just wait it out and things will go your way eventually. In the mean time, just try to enjoy life. I came to this realization because of Alex's passing, and it is inspiration for me not to give up. I also found out from Alex's mom that he thought i would be a great pharmacist, and that he really wanted me to become one. i'll have to wait and see. Current Mood: restless Current Music: Pearl Jam: I Am Mine (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 13th, 2002
3:28 am	i'm back! hey, sorry i haven't updated my journal in like umpteen million years, but i got so pissed off with it because i wrote a long-ass entry about how stupid saome people are and it got fucking erased! i was so mad. But i'm ok now. I've had a potential change in what i want to do for a career....as you may know i've been trying to get a chemistry lab job in the last 6 months, but the market Sucks. Now i'm thinking about going back to school. YES, I KNOW I WAS COMPLETELY SICK OF SCHOOL AT THE END OF MY SENIOR YEAR, but now that i've been away for a while, i feel like i might be able to go back. There are still alot of kinks to work out, but i think i want to do this for the rest of my life..What is it you ask? why, it's pharmacy. Yes, i think i want to go to pharmacy school and become a pharmacist. I've thought about it before, but was too sick of school, but now i can see the end result, and even though the means might be tough, i can work through it. Plus, pharmacists make a good bit of cash. please, whoever reads this tell me if that would be a good choice. Anyway, that's been my obsession for the last week or two. now onto other life changes.... My beautiful wonderful girlfriend Holly is in Australia now, but she'll be back home in 2 and a half weeks! YAY. i can't wait. I told her it will be the most exciting day of my life, and it's true. so, we are going to get an apartment in Albany or around there for 2 months, and hopefully my friend will move in with me when holly moves out so i can afford to be on my own. Ideally, i would like to attend Albany College of pharmacy because it is the ideal location, and it is only a 3 year program, although it is a year-round accelerated program. oh well, i'll appyy and see what happens. that won't be for a few months though. ok, that's a good summary for now. i'll update soon. Peace out. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: creed- Are You Ready? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 25th, 2002
10:06 pm	music is fun!!! i just bought Nickelback, hoobastank and the new disturbed cd's. They all rock!!. it's so good to spend alot of money once in a while!!. Whoo-hoo. Current Mood: excited Current Music: disturbed, nickelback, and hoobastank! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:20 am	laaadeeedaaa ok, so it's 3:20 in the morning and i'm awake...hmmm. I wish i didn't have to work today until 2:30 am, especially since i was dragging my feet the whole night. OK, so i'm the supposed "frozen food manager at Price Chopper (yes i got promoted, yay for me. I'm sorry but i don't want to make Price chopper my career and be like all the other losers working there)I asked for a pay raise, but i haven't got it yet, and something tells me my boss won't make it his #1 priority. Speaking of jobs, the chemistry job that i want keeps eluding me, no matter how hard i try. Oh well, i guess it is price chopper for my whole life :( Anyway, i'm going to albany next weekend to see lucas, jen, rich, jenny,tom and jeremy...Yay for that! i am genuinely excited to see all those people. Of course, 3 days after that, i'll be going up to school for midsemester break and see dorman, neil, and justin, and jeremy will be joining us too (he'll be on vacation). 'twill be a very good time. well, i was feeling crappy, but now i'm excited. PRODUCTIVITY: Yes, i know i can be a very non-productive person, but i'm feeling good now. I cleaned my car today. It was so messy, bottles all over, dust everywhere, windows streaked so bad you could barely see out of them at night (with the lights and all). Also, i bench pressed 200 pounds 5 times, then 4, then 3, then 3 again. I usually try for 4 sets of 5 reps...maybe next time. But it's the most weight i've done yet. My immediate goal is to bench press 225 lbs once. pretty good considering i only weigh 180 lbs. Oh well, that's my story for now, i'll keep you posted! Current Mood: good Current Music: disturbed: prayer (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 22nd, 2002
12:50 am	doh! you can tell i'm really tired because i went to type in imlilsosh to check my hotmail account, and i typed imlilass. ugh it's been a long day! Current Mood: groggy Current Music: default: wasting my time (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 21st, 2002
3:06 am	ok well Kristen and Justin, i now have a live journal so that i can vent my frustrations and happenings with you. I'll be updating soon, so keep checking back. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
3:05 am	Villains fear me. Heroes envy me. matt Socia is... The Happy Mastermind (Comment on this)